“It’s better to have loved and lost then to of never loved at all...”

Says the one who has never truly loved...

The truth be told as Kanyeazy said, “See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad...” I guess it's Bittersweet Poetry.

It literally kills you being pushed away from something that you desire so much. Mind you it’s been a work in progress for the entire time. Neither one of us could meet each other’s emotional needs. I’m not here to place any blame because that would justify our unreasonable ending, rather I’m here to tell you why I thought we went wrong. Since the beginning we dug ourselves into a tiny hole, still very manageable we could get in an out at will, until in this hole we began to dig. We dug out of frustration, anger, and jealousy until the point of no return and this once a tiny hole became a bottomless pit. We came to a point where it was no longer about digging, but rather a big competition of who could tightrope across this bottomless pit without falling. She would lose her step, purposely? And I’d make a choice to pick her up and vice versa deciding we would continue to play this foolish game. I guess you could say in the midst of this big contest, we lost sight of what really mattered, love. It was no longer about love we had been consumed with the game, until I found the opportunity to step off this tightrope, I outstretched my hand and asked her to come with me for I realized this game we were playing was quite stupid. She grabbed my hand, but pulled me right back onto the tightrope for one final game. We walked back and forth until she happened to slip, she was testing me once again, but what she failed to realize that the true test was her ability to get off the tightrope, take my hand and leave with me for if she had noticed the look in my eyes she would be able to see that I had been too tired to play this game one last time. As much as I wanted to pull her up, I had been worn down. With no energy left, I slipped and was hanging off the rope. I hoped she realized that I was going to fall, that I couldn’t pick myself back up and before she understood that it was real, I dropped into the bottomless pit...

To Be Continued...